happenings.

whoa its been too long since the last time I update this blog. and its December already! time flies so fast til its nearly new year, again..

on the 21st til 26th, i went to Sabah for a hectic and fun-filled holiday with my best friends! i miss those moments already.. we kinda decided for us to go for a holiday together every end or middle of the year.. an annual thingy la kiranya hehe ;)

on the 27th was Hari Raya Aidiladha. nothing much happened, we went to visit my late grandparents' graves on Eid morning.. then had some more of the 'Raya dishes' (the night before, I had already stuffed my face off with the homemade ketupat pulut, daging msk hitam and chicken curry; kenyang doe malam raya, maka sekdr testing jk, tapi terlebih suda hahaha) i arrived from KK the day before raya, after lunch terus tolong polah ketupat pulut, was soo sleepy but had to tahan.. then malam after online sekejap baruk dpt tdo.. haha.. so on that day, went to Sue's house for her surprise birthday party and makan2.. celebrate birthday Nisa skali lah msa ya.. then we went to my house for moreee stuffing our face off.. then me, Sue, Nisa and Faz went to Popwave for a bit of karaoke session.. hahaha.. then we searched high and low for a place to have some drinks before going home, but rata2 kedey tutup coz of Raya Aji, so finally settled at Benteng Satok coz there were a few stalls yang open, but then guess what? It was online 9.30pm but hampir suma benda habis! menu aek yang ada: Milo and Lychee. and i dont like both. boo hoo. so i didnt order and waited for the 3 of them to finish their Milo drinks.. hahaha.. then I sent them home ;)

then what else? oh yeah. went to watch New Moon with my besties a few days ago. JACOB BLACK = HOTNESS. thats all that I can say. move over Edward Cullen. vampires are sooo last year. werewolves rule! :D mcm mok ngga gk hehe ;)

and and ive started reading the final Twilight Saga yesterday; Breaking Dawn.. and im so attached to the book mcm apa jk. from the looks of it, maybe i'll be able to finish it in a few days' time considering the amount of time I spent for reading the book. oh im so in love with books and I dont know why. I found comfort while reading and would much much more rather to read than watch tv. omg what a nerd. im clarifying my love to books. well done nerd. :p so to say, cant wait to know the ending of the story. AND i dont want people to tell me what would happen! diam2 jak okie ;)

well2. dahlah eh. wanna sleep I guess. its 1.30am already. good night ppl!

Emerged.

I feel like I'm a new person today (actually, it started off last night). I feel so giddy in high spirits and in a very positive mode, something that I haven't felt in a very long time.

Hopefully I'll be able to keep my resolutions. I don't want to be messed up by those with sh*tload all over them. I don't want to be weak anymore. And I certainly ain't fooled by anyone anymore. I've never been this clear headed before. Everything is so bright in front of me. The truth is, being too nice is a big no-no. I've had my lesson. If they played it rough, you just have to beat them at it. Kan?

So enough is enough. The new me emerged. :)

The Facts..

There's kinda a series of things happening in my life recently, most of them were good ones, and then a few bumps and bruises, a surprisingly pleasing discovery, then finally; an ultimate crisis that bothered me much this afternoon.

Fact One:
Lately, I had fun fun fun with my family and friends. Seemed to be going out with amazing people everyday. Movies, eating out, karaoke.. Had a bunch of good times with good company. Gonna miss those in Kuching. Hopefully I can survive while being far away from home. Huhuhu.. :(

Fact Two:
With my utmost pleasure, I want to state here that I am now an official red meat eater. HAHAHAHAHAHA. For a start, a week ago I tried to eat mcd's double cheese burger that people love so much. And, well, for the results, I am now an addict for it. Thankssss lah. Hahaha. And burger kat Swinburne ya nyaman abis wak eh.. Had a chance to each their Grilled Cheese Burger (beef ha. eksen oi sik mok cerik chicken lok hahahaha) and boy, my friend and I were hooked up by the taste of that awesome burger! Looking forward for it again soon! (lak cerik chicken skalik hee)

Fact Three:
The guy, whom I ranted about in one of my previous posts, pissed me off today. He wrote some crap at his fb status saying something that he quoted from my post/note. "edeh2.. 'It's your loss, not mine'.. macamlah dirik ya kacak gilak nak ku angauku gilak. sbb ko tek "SUPERRICH" alu ku loss lah. Damn!" lebeh kurang cmyalah katanyaaaaa.. Apakah makna lossnya tek kah.. Pa jaklah ada SUPERRICH indah.. Lawaklah.. Hahahaha.. Tauk pun terasa duhal bila baca note aku lam fb.. Dahlah note ya arum bulak nearly 2minggu yang lepas,masa benong2 ku berkelaie ngn kau tegal sikap bodoh sombong kau ya.. Dah bila aku komen rah status kau, terus diremove ko status n comment2 org rah sia.. Ishh nangla kau ya susah nak diphm.. Bkn ku sekda effort nak fhm ok, tapi kau ya complicated gilak, smpey shut off org dr nak rapat ngn kau.. Ingin kau ada, p effort kau mpun sekda trus.. Dahlah sakit ati ngn org sik tentu arah, apa jak salah org ngn kau kah.. Org kdk tok,ng sikpat dilyn,sikpat dibait.. I've really learned my lesson. Thanks to those people who cares so much about me and said some pleasant stuff to console me today huhu. :) And again, IT'S YOUR LOSS, NOT MINE. G.T.H!~

I Love That Day. :)

17th October was perrrrfect! :)

Morning - Aizat picked me up then we went to pick up Juki. Then went to Bawan's house to attend the makan selamat. Felt kinda nice to reunite with some of my old friends from primary school. :)

Afternoon - Attending the Graduation Ceremony at Riverside Majestic. Was freakin nervous but Alhamdulillah everything went well. My family took sooooooo many pictures of me using 3 cameras (mine which was held by Shaf; my big bro's; and Abg Jo's). Haha. I love them! (Mama, Ewan, Kak Intan, Kak San, Marina, Shaf, Nisa, and Abg Jo haha) thanks for attending the ceremony. :) and i love lovee my coursemates too. Those who graduated and those who were the committees of the ceremony. Took quite a number of pictures with them hehe.. Not to mention, my lecturers too. Love you guys :) oh ya, thanks so much to those who thoughtfully gave flowers, teddies, and gifts for me as graduation gifts. And all the 'congratulations' and encouraging and motivational thoughts. Thank you and I appreciate them very much :)

Then we went to have our photos taken at the studio at Copal. Had a fun time there. Very funny la that cameraman. He cracked us up even though he didn't mean to make any jokes and focus on doing his work. We made fun of what he instructed to us all the time even though he was right in front of us. Sorry Encik Cameraman yang innocent lagi budiman. Hahaha. :)

Night - Went for dinner at the usual place, Coca. Had a great time celebrating with family and friends, and they also brought a cake for me! Haha. I love them to bits lah. ;)

Ohhh what a perfect and memorable day :D

The Day is here!

Today is the day! :)

I'm graduating today at Riverside Majestic at 2pm. Oh wow. I can't believe the day eventually comes.

I'm sooooooooo nervous and yet I'm freakin excited at the same time. ;)

Oh let everything runs smoothly, Amin.

It's gonna be a fun fun fun day today from morning til night, hopefully.

Oh yes, good morning everyone, and have a pleasant day yourselves! :)

Today....

Today, my big bro and I went to settle the payment for uni and I finally filled the acceptance offer form today! Wahh I feel so relieved :) I promised I'll study hard!~ hehe.. Can't wait to further my studies. Had enough of holidays and rest already. Berkarat otakku eh. Haha.

Then I went to the college for the graduation rehearsal. Huu I didn't expect that so many of us will be graduating :) after we got our gowns, there was a briefing about this Saturday and then off I went home. Aisey, feeling nervous and excited about the graduation ceremony muahahaha

Hopefully everything would go well on Saturday. And to those who would be getting their scrolls together with me, Congrats to all of us! :)

note to self: must think of what to wear!~~ heeee :D

Rants about you. >:)

I finally said it to someone yesterday. I told him EXACTLY every single thing that I wanted him to know, via text messages, because he seemed to be avoiding me and not replying my texts and rejecting my calls yesterday. Mostly, about how suck he has been towards me all these times. Yes, you suck. And you should probably know that, if you are not aware of it already. Hee.

Someone should give him a lesson. With a behaviour like that, I wonder why I didn't realized that everything that he said or do were fake to me. Yes, fake! You 'ran' away from me and disappeared 2 years ago, then you shamelessly contacted me again nearly a year after that, and now after things between us were smoother and we were quite close, you suddenly showed your true self. Your utter selfish, egoistic, hypocrite, ultimately negative true self. Not to mention, the jealousy. Urgh. You really do suck. And yet, we do not have any sorts of relationships together anymore, then why are you being so damn complicated?

Face it lah. Stop blaming other people for the way you behaved. Stop being so sorry for yourself and buried yourself with your work and made it as an excuse for being difficult to others. Even your own friend said; 'Let him be in his own world. He doesn't have any feelings, even I don't understand the way he thinks or does.' You see? My point is, no one understands you! And what do you expect?

Eventhough I've known you for 5 years now, but I still haven't fully understand everything about you. As you said, you feel like there's a barrier between us that makes you feel like you're still a stranger to me, just because of the fact that I am friends with someone that you dislike so much. You are so full of excuses, you know that? And you know what, the person that you dislike with all your heart, is the person who is wayyy better than you. At least he doesn't blame me for everything. At least he made some effort to get to know me, to cheer me up, to be interested in what I'll do in the future. At least he is enjoying himself with his family and friends around him and doesn't down himself with sorrow and negativity all the time. You see, he just ain't you. And why do you hate him so much? And why is it so wrong for me to befriend him? Huhh..

Well, that's it then. If you want to get rid of me from your life, its fine by me. Its time for me to stop messing around with ungrateful people and start to think about myself and my feelings. Seriously, its your loss, not mine. The end.