Freaking out.

Yes, freaking out.

The fact that I would leave familiarity of my hometown and my loved ones are starting to make me, well, freaked out.

As I wrote my list of things to bring yesterday afternoon, I started to feel the anxiety. Nervous. Nearly being emotional too. Hah! I've spent all my 20 years in Kuching and occasionally KL, especially starting last year. I'm used to being around my family, my friends, my home. Driving my car, making my way around the place that I grew up in, hanging out with friends, spending time with family..

Now, as I'm about to become 21 in a few days, I'll be going to a place where I have to get used to for a couple of years. New surrounding, new people, new everything. And believe me, I'm not really used to new everything. -_-"

I'm not being whiny. True, I'm really excited about going to further my studies. I want to live a new life in a new place. Really wanted to start being independent, to survive, to learn, all by myself. And with new friends lah. But you know..

I have to get used to all of that first. Takut, yes. Sedih, yes. Hopefully I wouldn't be too homesick. Chaiyo~ :)