It's been much too long already. What's with other distractions and such, I've abandoned this humble blog of mine haha. Well well. First of all, it's probably still not too late for me to wish you guys a happy new year 2010, may this year brings more happiness, joy and bright future for us, yes? :)
As for me, wellll, not much is happening to me now. 2010 starting off nicely, thank God, but yesterday I received some news, but after some curing remedies (nyakit-tekak-eventho-demam-karaoke session and nearly midnight munching at mcd, then today, good ole' teh tarik and roti telur for breakfast, movies, shopped a bit then a nice lunch), I felt sooo much better now. Oh, not to forget, talking about him (not in a very nice way tho hahaha) with people around me, helped me to get over it too! Hahaha.
Well, its nothing really. Except that yesterday I received the news that my ex-boyfriend will be having a wedding reception today. :) Glorious news, isn't it? Haha.
A few days before the new year, I've texted a few people saying that I'm sorry, so that I can start the new year without feeling much guilt in me haha.. So, the thing is, when I texted the ex-boyfriend, he replied saying some things, then in his other text, suddenly he asked me that "You know I'm a married man now, right?" Ohh hell no I don't! I kinda freaked out a bit, so I said I didn't know about it, and he seemed to be surprised that I didn't have any clue about that. What, does he thinks that my relatives there would be busy telling me about him getting married to that divorcee (yes, she was married before, and had a 3-year-old son)? HELLLOOO~ :p
So you know, I asked very good-naturedly about the wedding and with who (I just wanted to know if he was really marrying the girl that I mentioned above), he said he got married on 7th November 2009. Oh my. Just a month before our 2 years' anniversary, if we were still a couple. How could he be so unbelievable? Like he didn't know that 7 is kinda an important date to me. Can't he just find another feckin date to get married? Damn..
Well anyways, he didn't mention anything about his wife (omg feels so awkward while typing the word ewww) so I just leave it there. I thought I was strong that time, I didn't shed a tear and even laughed about it, but after the day nearly ends, while listening to a sad song in the car, my tears started to roll down. The news finally got me. I cried and cried and cried, and was thankful that I had put my sunnies on so that people wouldn't noticed how miserable I looked inside the car.
After that, I thought about it over and over again. Why do I have to waste my tears for him, again? He was married already, so there would be absolutely no hope at all for us to get back together. So? It's not like he was the last man on the planet, yes? :) I admit that I fell in love with him real hard 2 years ago, and the feeling was somehow still stayed the same towards him. But I have to face the fact that we were long gone, and we really couldn't be together no matter what. The moments with him were like my own version of fairytale, but there ain't any happily every afters for us. It was really, really tough to let him go entirely, and from the moment we broke up, I admit that I still hold a thin thread to connect to him, as for my heart still goes to him. But after being ignored, being lied to (he denied over and over again of having another girl after we broke up, what the heck), being pushed away and humiliated myself, I surrended after fighting for a year after the break up. It was clear that his heart doesn't beat the same rhythm as mine anymore. He gave his heart to someone else, and I had to accept reality. Fullstop.
So, when new year came, I set my mind up. I really had to throw him out of the picture, out of my life, my heart, my mind, and if possible; my memory. He may worth every bit of my soul once, but now, he's just a speck of dust to me. Yes, still, I do feel a bit of sadness when I heard that the 'majlis persandingan' was held today and my mom was invited to 'merenjis' them (ohhhh myyyy godddd can you guys imagine such a thing? My mom was invited to my ex-boyfriend's wedding. Good one, huh?). It's a good thing that I'm in KL and I couldn't attend the wedding eventhough I wasn't really invited (I texted him yesterday and asked why wasn't I invited but then he said he did gave out the invitation, for the whole family. Yeah right. Lots of bulls lah you).
*Dolok boleh jak mdh dkpun ngn aku yg ko dh nikah, dh jd laki org, p sik juak ko dkpun nak nyeruk aku g majlis persandingan kau nak. Yahh*
So that's why, I cheered myself up last night and today by having good times with a few family members. And the fact that I shed ZERO tears since yesterday really amazed me. Hehe. Now, I'm just aching to see the wedding photos. Hopefully I'll be having a good laugh browsing through them. That would really be an entertainment for us. ;)
So guys and girls, if you have the same experience as me (your ex is getting married), just chill. Let them be. If the person is really worthy for you, you wouldn't end up breaking up with him in the first place, right? There is someone much better for you, you just need to wait for the right person to appear in your life. Don't be miserable while your ex is being happy with his/her new life, you should also get on with your life, because your journey is still long ahead. You might not know what is in store for you, but just think that the future would be more fabulous than your past, InsyaAllah. This is a motivation for me too. :)
Forget loser ex boyfriends/girlfriends. We are wayyy better without them! :D
Have a great year ahead, everyone. ;)
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