A few days ago, on a very early morning, I wrote quite an emotional post in this blog. Very short and precise, I just had to write in something to witness the pain that struck me in the heart at the time.
The heart. Pumping blood now and then. Emotions running through the veins. A feeling I held and kept for so long, mending the wound from past failed relationships, building a hope for such a long period of time.
Now wasted. Because reality finally hits and the truth came out eventually.
Waiting patiently for someone has been one of my worst mistakes that I made. Lies were thrown to me, before the truth fell upon. But all's done. Things will never be like I dreamed it will be, that is for sure. I could see it coming, actually. But not like this. Certainly, not being lied upon like this.
Crush. Massive, massive crush. Sometimes you'll get lucky, other times you don't. But having a crush for someone for a few years then finally being destroyed in just a split second?
But I know that you're not worth it. So that's why I'm not giving that much thought anymore. Actually, I feel much better now, finally being 'of the hook', ending my anxiety all these while about when are you going to take some step towards us. Hah.
But just one thing. You said something about Jodoh? Wallahualam. If you don't mean it, don't dare to mention it, again.
p.s: Never ever hope for something that is out of reach or is clearly impossible.
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