Past, Present, Future

Terasa nak type something lagi. Kenjet.

I had a long talk with Shayra this evening. We talked about our past, about who hated us once upon a time ago. Because last night Wanee told us more or less the same story, about guys who hated her during her days doing her preparatory studies, before coming to Melbourne. So Shayra and I talked about our own versions of being hated by certain guys as well.

She told me something that happened way back in high school, and I told her about E. I told everything that happened between us, what a loser he was (and still is kot). I think I took like, nearly 20minutes to sum up the story about him haha.. Shayra said all the right things to say, that I wanted to hear, and somehow it made me smile to hear another person supported me in the matter. Since I came here to Melbourne, I never even thought of E. Because I made a deal with myself before entering the new year that I wouldn't think of E anymore, or any of those people in my past. It was painful enough, and I wanted to buckle up and start a new chapter in the new year. :)

I think E still hates me like hell, ever since last year. Its not like I wanted to hold a grunge on him or anything, in fact I sent him a text before new year. But he didn't replied me back, so I just assumed that he still hates me. And I don't care anymore. I said sorry already, so it is up to him to forgive me or not.

(Current song on ipod: Superhuman by Chris Brown ft. Keri Hilson) - Memang super indeed.

It's funny how life turns out much different than we expected. Memanglah one couldn't expect what will happen in the future right. So for now, I'll just hand it to fate. Yeah true, I like a guy. For a long, long time now. But somehow.. I don't know. I think I finally surrender. I couldn't do it anymore. I had high hopes on him, but he just don't feel the same way as I do anymore maybe, not like what he said to me once upon a time..

(Current song: Skipalong by Lenka) - Not much skipping can be done in this matter.

So that's just it then. I'll just try my best to stay away. And maybe he'll be much much happier without me terhegeh-hegeh bothering him all these while. :) Patience has its limits, and mine has limits as well.

(Current song: Waking Up In Vegas by Katy Perry) - Err okay. Haha.

Looking on the bright side, I have terrific friends around me here. Who needs boys when you have great girlfriends around?

(Current song: Don't Trust Me by 3OH!3) - Yeah. Don't trust what I said. HAHA.

But seriously, having a boyfriend memang happy, but being single is fun. Cuci-cuci mata all around! Haha.

"Gedik-ing is the best medicine!" :) ciao!

*this post memang nampak crap and fictional but all the facts are true though :)