mushy confession.

It's been quite a while since the last time I experienced this feeling. The feeling of affection towards someone. Feeling of longing to be with that person, the utmost feeling of missing someone so much. The feeling of falling for that person. Just by seeing the person's name makes my heart pounding like crazy, like it will burst from the inside. Don't let me mention about butterflies in the stomach. And keep on thinking about the person during night and day.

The feeling of being in love. I miss this feeling. And its happening again in myself. With the person that I've known since I was 15. The person who was in my past, but whom I never seemed to get over with. true, after the things between us were over 3 years ago, different people come and go from my life. But him, he stays in my heart. And now.. I think I'm falling ever deeper for him because so far things are starting to get better between us, since the ugly fallout that we had last year until the last 3 months. Hopefully we settled every grudge between us. And I can just hope that we can start all over again. The same 'us', but at the same time, a new 'us'. A new awakening. A fresh start. A better one. :)

And God, I can just hope and pray that he still feels the same.. And there will be a new 'us' soon.. I just don't bear to lose him again. Not when things are starting to get better now.

"I'd give anything but I won't give up on you
I'd say anything but not goodbye
I will run with your changes and I'm always on your side
And there's not a word that I've ever heard
That would make me change my mind"

-Words by Train

And it made me so giddy in happiness when he 'liked' the lyrics above that I posted in FB as my status update yesterday. :)

Oh my having this sort of feelings makes me feel so silly. Haha. Even the smallest thing matters so much to me.

Hey you. You mean so much to me. Hopefully you will know that eventually. :)

And this marks the end of the mushy post. Haha.