sorry and thanks.

Bjalan kaki di pasar tamu,
Sambil berjalan mencari teman,
Walau jauh beribu batu,
Hilang dmata dihati jangan.

Nyaman benar makan jambu,
Lepas makan nulis cek,
Iboh riso dgn ragu,
Cinta kitak ttp d ati kamek

Those were the "pantun"/riddles taken from my boyfriend's blog, dedicated to me. He raised his concern about me due to my previous post and told me that he is afraid of losing me. For I am "his first love, and always going to be the last one", and so he said.

Sorry for making you feel worried. Really, that's not my intention. I admit that I'm scared of falling in love again. Giving a chance to someone new in my life. I'm scared of giving my all to you, my whole heart and soul to you, for I'm sooo terrified that you're going to break my heart and leave me and failed to keep your promises like what I had to face before this.

And I know you said that not all men are the same. I know that. And I hope I can believe that too. Sorry for not making much effort to you and our relationship for the past few days. Kepala serabut sekarang. I hope I can manage myself and my feelings better after this.

Sorry again. And thanks for being there.